When I start to really think about Covecrest, I just get so darn happy. Everything becomes right in the world and it’s fantastical. I just love Covecrest so much. I never want to lose Covecrest or my faith. Ever.
Alright, I’m going to bed. My mood has been steadily going downhill since about an hour ago and I’m feeling pretty crappy. I caved and typed in Kevin’s name in the Facebook search bar, which basically makes me feel awful and hate myself. I might tell one of my friends to just block his page for me…it’d break my heart though. I’m surprised he hasn’t blocked me already.
I was thinking and missing Kevin so much, I texted my best friend and asked her to take my mind off of it. The response? “I can’t deal with this right now.” Which upset me even more and made me realize even more how selfish she is. Yes, I’m selfish, but I’ll least say “Hey, look, I’m having my own problems so I can’t help you with yours right now, sorry.” Or I’ll try to forget about my problems to help yours. Sometimes, I’ll just tell you mine after you told me yours.
Just done with her.
My other best friend just texted me, which she rarely does and PERFECTLY distracted me- did exactly what I needed and doesn’t even know. Her timing couldn’t have been more perfect.
So, I’ll think I’ll go curl up in bed with my iPod and watch Tangled or listen to Taylor. Maybe both. They both always make me feel better.
if i ever become famous, this blog never happened.
And now I miss Kevin again. :(