When I start to really think about Covecrest, I just get so darn happy. Everything becomes right in the world and it’s fantastical. I just love Covecrest so much. I never want to lose Covecrest or my faith. Ever.
Alright, I’m going to bed. My mood has been steadily going downhill since about an hour ago and I’m feeling pretty crappy. I caved and typed in Kevin’s name in the Facebook search bar, which basically makes me feel awful and hate myself. I might tell one of my friends to just block his page for me…it’d break my heart though. I’m surprised he hasn’t blocked me already.
I was thinking and missing Kevin so much, I texted my best friend and asked her to take my mind off of it. The response? “I can’t deal with this right now.” Which upset me even more and made me realize even more how selfish she is. Yes, I’m selfish, but I’ll least say “Hey, look, I’m having my own problems so I can’t help you with yours right now, sorry.” Or I’ll try to forget about my problems to help yours. Sometimes, I’ll just tell you mine after you told me yours.
Just done with her.
My other best friend just texted me, which she rarely does and PERFECTLY distracted me- did exactly what I needed and doesn’t even know. Her timing couldn’t have been more perfect.
So, I’ll think I’ll go curl up in bed with my iPod and watch Tangled or listen to Taylor. Maybe both. They both always make me feel better.
“But I will say, that as far as I’m concerned, your being gay is not a political or a relgious issue, and even if you don’t hear this from your parents, I think it’s important for you to know that there are many deeply religious Christians who believe that being the person who God made you does not and cannot seperate you from God’s love.”—John Green (via bluenailedmonster)
i might never hear another word you speak as long as you live. i hate the idea of that, i hate the idea that i will never be able to tell you everything I have not yet got a chance to say. i still want to watch the stars with you and feel your hands and there are so many words i can write here but the truth is none of them matter. i just want you back.